The Clock Is Ticking

This is a continuation of my previous article, The Journey Begins…

When I was younger, I didn’t think much about what I wanted to do with my life. Like a typical teenager, I cared more about finding the next party than thinking about my future.

Now, in my late twenties, my party days are long over. It’s been a lifetime since those days I spent crashing at friends’ houses and searching for any way possible to escape reality. I’ve carried over some habits from that time, but now, my focus is squarely on being here for my family and sharing my ideas through writing.

As I reach the end of my twenties, I’m looking back on this past decade and seeing clearly all the things I could have done better – particularly with this blog.

Your twenties are a time when you can figure out who you are and what you want to do while you’re here. You have your whole life ahead of you. Youth gives you space to make mistakes, learn, and grow into the role you will play for the rest of your life. You never forget those mistakes as the years roll on because they are crucial in forming the person you become.

It is a magical time of growth and self-discovery.

When the end of your twenties draws near, the magic starts to fade. In its place is a sense of existential anxiety. You realize that your time is running out as a young person with plenty of space to decide who you want to be. Once you hit your thirties, you’ll be a real adult forced to leave your wild or lazy days behind. It’s a scary feeling, and I’d imagine it gets worse as you get older.

It’s made me realize I need to get to work.

My effort so far has been inconsistent, but my goal throughout these past few years has been to find success with writing and blogging. I’m not always dedicated, and I often feel like I should work harder. Despite this, I’m staying true to my vision.

I’m not great at holding myself accountable, but lately, something will not let me walk away from this idea that I can be a writer who inspires people. I feel a deep desire to practice my craft, slowly improve, and reach a broader community of readers. Something is urging me to become a better writer and solidify this “job” I’ve put so much thought and hope into.

I have this nagging feeling that expression is my purpose. We all search for a role to play while we’re on this planet; perhaps I’m here to express ideas. When I write, I access a free-flowing state of mind I can’t ordinarily connect with. I can articulate things others are thinking but don’t know how to put into words. My purpose may be to hone this basic skill so it can become something special.

Writing is one of the only things I know how to do. I have potential as a writer, but since there is so much room for improvement, all I can do is practice. When I fail to show up, I get uncomfortable because I know I’m missing this much-needed practice. If I ever want to be more than okay at writing, I must work at it.

I still have a couple of years before those dreaded thirties hit, but I am no longer a young twenty-something with plenty of time to find my path. Now is the time for discipline and dedication to my craft. If I continue to have wasted days, I could miss a chance that doesn’t come around often.

This is a far cry from how I felt a few years ago when I had nothing but time and plenty of chances to waste it.

Though my twenties are winding down, I still have a little time to build a solid foundation to work from in my thirties and beyond. The nagging discomfort I feel when I don’t write is likely a sign that this “job” could become something real, and thus, I should apply myself. I don’t always know what to say, but I know I should be writing.

I’m glad I went down the wacky rabbit hole that led me to the role of a writer focused on spirituality and self-improvement. It’s been quite a journey fraught with uncertainty, instability, and too many wasted days; but I’m happy I landed here. Now that I’m here and getting older every day, it’s time to put in the work.

If you’re in the same boat as me, remember: the clock is ticking.

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About Wes Annac:

I’m a twenty-something writer & blogger with an interest in spirituality, love, awareness, activism, and other crazy stuff. I run Openhearted Rebellion – a blog dedicated to sharing wisdom and encouraging a revolution that begins in the heart.

I also run Cannac – a blog in which I share some of my research and opinions on cannabis. There, I write about everything from legalization to hemp and the various ways people use the cannabis plant.

I’ve contributed to a few awesome websites that include Waking Times, Wake Up World, Golden Age of Gaia, and The Master Shift. I can be found on Facebook (facebook.com/wesannac, facebook.com/cultureofawareness) and Twitter (twitter.com/Wes_Annac, https://twitter.com/love rebellion)

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