O Though I!

By Steve Beckow, Golden Age of Gaia

I’ve been unable to make of the observer an object of study. The minute I begin to study it, I realize that “I,” the observer, am studying it.

And I then ask who is this “I” who is studying it? It again turns out to be another “I,”  another instance of the observer, the perennial subject.

I cannot get behind it and see through its eyes. I cannot make of it an object of study.

That’s one of the indications that we are fragments of God, a chip off the old block, so to speak. One cannot get behind the Universal Subject either or make of it an object of study. One has to give up study at some point, apparently, to know It.

The two voices I listen to I call my “Adult” and my “Child.” My Parent does not arise, which is not surprising. I have no energy on being a parent this lifetime.

But all the while “I” am doing the listening; the voices are not. At least not from “my” perspective.


If I’m having a problem studying something that’s a perennial subject and never an object, can you imagine the problem God faced in wanting to know Itself? (1)

Father God created us fragments of Itself, clothed in “bodies by Mother,” to follow a long cycle of awakening in her material school of experience. All for the moment of awakening and reunion of God and God.

Since God is all there is, it’s a challenging task for God to meet or know Itself. This meeting in a moment of our enlightenment serves that purpose.

My task of knowing myself matches God’s self-set task. My enlightenment is the means of completing both.

We meet when I realize “I am God.” As Bayazid of Bistun put it:

“I went from God to God,
until they cried from me in me,
‘O thou I!’” (2)

Every time a soul realizes itself (“O thou I!” “I am God!”), God has the pleasure of realizing Itself. It’s a win/win. Illusion is banished. God’s Plan is shown to be our Plan.

Yay us for entering into ignorance and climbing out again.  Yay us for persevering in the longest journey to what Churchill called “the sunny uplands.”


(1) For more on the cycle of life, see “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/

(2) Bayazid of Bistun in Aldous Huxley, The Perennial Philosophy. New York, etc.: Harper and Row, 1970; c1944, 12.


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