Both Gradual and Sudden – Part 1/2

By Steve Beckow, Golden Age of Gaia

My attention remains drawn to three different experiences I’ve had so far. They weren’t experiences of the non-dual reality. Two of them were the epitome of dualistic experiences.

I realize this discussion may be technical to some. I mean it as practically an anthropological record and I apologize to those for whom it sounds difficult.

Archangel Michael once pointed out that we lightworkers today are doing something different from the ancient sages.

The ancient sages addressed a small body of students and worked with individuals.

We lightworkers today address the whole world and work with the collective. That reflects a difference in assignment: We’re tasked with accomplishing a mass Ascension and the sages were tasked with accomplishing individual ascensions.

My task here is to discuss my own experiences in the hope that that proves helpful to others.

Archangel Michael through Ronna Herman made a statement so surprising to me that I drew back when I read ir. He described the ‘Natural Self’ below.

“You made a pledge that when the time came for you to step onto the path of Ascension, you would allow us to set aside your free will so that we could take whatever measures were deemed necessary to awaken you.

“For many, it resulted in a Soul merge, (1) and others who had already awakened to their Soul Self were ready for a merge with a facet of their Higher Self. (2) When the Soul finally merges fully with the Sacred Heart, (3) it is a grand reunion of monumental proportions. When your intentions are composed of wisdom overlaid with Love and projected with purity, you become a powerful source of Sacred Fire energy.  …

“Most of you, who have consciously made an effort to reclaim your Divinity, through whatever means you were/are attracted to, are among this advanced group of souls. You agreed to be the examples, and you are willing to do everything within your power to ease the way for others by becoming sentinels of Light, Wayshowers and World Servers.” (4)

The experience he doesn’t mention is the temporary heart opening, a fourth-chakra experience, which would precede the experiences described here.  It’s been described in other places. Let me put it aside and concentrate instead on the two experiences he does mention.

His descriptions fully coincides with my own experience.

The merger I experienced with the Natural Self is, I think, what he’s referring to as the “Soul merge”and awakening “to their Soul Self.” I’ve described mine elsewhere.  (5)

I had two experiences of the Natural Self. In one, I saw the vision of a red-haired man, who seemed unusually peaceful. Immediately upon fastening my attention on him, a deep peace descended on me.  I realized that this peace was the Natural Self.

Some months after this experience, I became aware that I was thinking of my Natural Self as being located “out there.”  When I saw that, a wall of belief dropped from me. There no longer being a wall between me and the Natural Self, we merged.  After that, there was just “me.”

Nonetheless there is reality and the illusion and they coexist. From that time on, I looked upon me and my Natural Self as a slinky. My Natural Self existed one staircase above me.  But we were connected. We were one.

Now put these two experiences aside and consider experience number three, a vision of what I came to know as my Higher Self. This is what Michael refers to as “a merge with a facet of their Higher Self.”

That Higher Self seemed to me to be of a higher-dimensional vibration than the Natural Self.

That vision occurred just before the Solar Eclipse and within the Emerald Gateway. You remember that the Tsunami of Love was also intensified.

I glimpsed a figure before which I was in awe.  It wasn’t the kind of blurry, TV image of a daydream. It was the crisp, movie-screen image of a theater.

Even though the glimpse was only for a few seconds, it was a much deeper experience than that of the Natural Self.

I was awed by what I saw. This magnificent being.

Not for a moment did I suspect that I was that being, on a much higher dimension, higher than the Natural Self.

It took perhaps two or three hours for someone to whisper in my ear: “That’s me.”  That’s me? Cannot be. I tried it on.

The realization that it was indeed me knocked me flat. That is to say, the experience had a rapid, discontinuous, and profound impact on me. It was not just intellectual, not just experiential knowledge; it was realized knowledge.

I’d blow my everyday circuits trying to experience the energy of that Being, given the density of my everyday consciousness.


Michael goes on to describe an experience in which “the Soul finally merges fully with the Sacred Heart.” That sounds like a reference to Sahaja Samadhi, the permanent heart opening that ends the Ascension process.

But I think there’ll be one more level or “jump” in between: What we think of as Brahmajnana or God-Realization. That’s a seventh-chakra experience that I think serves as a bridge between a merger with the Higher Self and Sahaja.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) I believe this is what I call the Natural Self.

(2) Such as happened a few days before the eclipse.

(3) I believe he’s referring here to Sahaja Samadhi, a full and complete heart opening, the culmination of our Ascension.

(4) “Archangel Michael: Are You Ready to Embody Your Sacred Fire Energy?” Channelled through Ronna Herman, November 29, 2013, at:

Another explanation from him is also relevant:

“We have asked of you, in preparation for your transition for Ascension, to call back into yourselves all parts, all what we refer to as aspects of your being that you have sent out on various missions and purposes, often, my beloved ones, in service to the Divine Mother and, of course, to me.

“But as you welcome these parts of your being back into your core, embrace them, celebrate them, but also acknowledge the various parts of who you are — angelic or archangelic, it matters not – starseed, star-being, hybrid, human and Earth-keeper, elemental, deva, fairy, man, woman or child. And within those pieces, embrace all the faces of who you are, because we do.” (“Archangel Michael: I See You! I Love You! I Will Engage,” Nov. 7, 2013, at

(5) See “First Glimpse of the Natural Self Today,” Feb. 21, 2017, at and “Love Respects Our Free Will,” at June 4, 2017, at

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