http://theolance.wordpress.com/2013/01/17/whos-in-chargeyou/
Dear friends out there, I’m writing this for those of you that may feel lost but also for my self as well for I was expecting a different start. It is true, I do feel lonely sometimes and I also do feel a little disappointed.
I thought that the new age would come to our physical state with spaceships landing all over around the globe, aliens and people gathering all together sharing a smile,a hug,a kiss. Obviously that didn’t happen. I thought that I would be relieved by my daily struggle for a better world. Apparently I’m not. I don’t want to sound ungrateful but I can’t help but express the way I feel.
I’m so confused and the only way to feel better is by hearing the ‘voices in my head‘. I can’t meditate, I can’t eat, I can’t share a smile when I’m with the ones that love me. I cry almost every day. The only thing that helps me to keep going are my dreams. Every dream is helping me to consciously understand things about me and my surroundings. I keep having these signs and sometimes I instantly know what they mean.
This is not the first time that I felt lost and unhappy in my life but I sure hope that it is the last one . I was never a quitter and I’m not going to start being one now. NO. For now I have the means and tools to fight for what is rightfully mine.
I grew up in a restricting world where you are supposed to believe, think,see, smell, touch and taste whatever they want you to, yet I’m here with my own beliefs, ways to deal with situations, having accomplished things that I thought were possible only in comic books…This is a test and a way for me to show the world my full potential and that’s what I’m going to do. The ones in control of this physical world are growing weak and I can sense it. Though the world didn’t change into what I believed it would, it didn’t remain the same either. I’m in control of my world, not them.
My sincere apologies if some content of this post brings you negativity but I just want to share what’s happening to me right now with all of you. It’s just a phase and I will embrace it for whatever doesn’t kill me, only makes me stronger.I know that you are there for me as I am and always will be there for you, my friends my family.
We stand together and we fight to bring our loving world into a new age that I’m sure is not far away from our doorstep. I will keep fighting not only for the ones that love me but for the ones that hate me as well. I’ve seen things that changed me so much that I can’t possibly hate anyone. Every day I feel my inner self growing stronger in more ways than one. I had a dream the other day, I saw that I was in a huge room and I started floating into the air to a point when I reached the ceiling and then I started falling. Next thing, I woke up and at the very instant I opened my eyes. I felt my entire body hitting against the bed….
Much love and light to all of you:)
Openhearted Rebellion 
Every word you wrote, I feel in my heart, as if I had written, I just want to send you a hug and say, here I am here, I’m your brother, your family, and I love you, thanks Konstantino
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Thank you for your wonderful comments dear Nicholas, but as you can see in the title, I’m not the one who wrote the article, but Theodore, a friend of mine. Much Love to you.
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Thank you very much for your comment,it gives me strength.May love and light guide you,always 🙂
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Hi from Lisa:
I have been going through feeling lost, lonely, and just plain in a fog at times. This isn’t negative, it’s just totally real. We are all moving out thousands of years of …………
Ancient ways of seeing and be living out of our auric fields and thank god for that. I am trying to be patient with myself, otherwise i find myself running all over the place, which is what my stubborn mind has been doing, instead of trusting that the new dream within is gestating and doing what it needs to do.. I really wish I was better at this part, because I am missing out on some Precious Now moments. Baisically My mind is dissolving as we speak and my heart is falling in love with something it doesn’t know, and I’m scared but overall,,,,,,I believe and am,mas they say, a true believer….
Love …….Lisa.
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Love is a beautiful thing and we would be lost without it,so trust your heart and i believe that everything will start making sence 🙂 Much love!!!
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I like your honesty.
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Greetings, I know what exactly how you feel as I too have gone through this same “Test” from recent experiences that were both fun and exciting and then a sharp turn to disappointment, anger and sadness and even separation. For a short time, I felt alive and happy, grateful etc. and then it ended. My ego really got involved along with my heart! All I have is my inner self to listen too and I think it’s also trust in that inner voice as well might be part of this “Test” as well. When things turn out the other way that you didn’t want, you start to question, why? I have found that the voice can’t tell or reveal everything or it would give it away so to speak. We still are learning! I’m really glad you posted this because I too felt lost and confused and even a little angry and learning that feelings are ok but not to stay in them for too long. But it still ok to bleed out all the negativity that might still remain dormant in us. Maybe sometimes it has to get provoked in order to be released. We do have to bleed out all of our old energy in order for the new energy to be born and grow within us. Yes indeed, can be painful!
Your post helped me realize that still we are human form (I’m a starseed) and we aren’t perfect. Not yet anyways. By sharing this, made me feel better and hopeful that this world is/will become a better place for all of us and this indeed is a tough job! I hear the words quite often to stay in balance. Balance in meaning not to take things so strongly and to keep grounded (my terms, stay stress free and calm as possible). Some days it’s easier said than done but when things get out of whack or throws you over to feeling yucky then maintaining balance really takes some effort. I hear the words, practice this as it will take some time to learn. I have a problem with worry. It seems that I’m a professional worrier (brought up that way from a parent) So I have been practicing to let all the worries go and let go, let happen so to speak and have trust in myself that all is well. Even when things don’t turn out the way that I want them too. Thanks! – Shey
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I couldnt agree more with you Shey and i guess we all just have to keep going and whenever we feel sad or angry we can remind ourselves that this is only a phase.:)
Love and light to you.
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